Letter to Jami

My Dear Jami,

Surprise! Your Dad is actually writing you a letter... A letter that is long overdue. Andi says that being away has given me time in my head. She's right. She's right a lot lately.

So while I am cruising back from dinner at Ho's Dynasty by myself tonight a song came on the radio that made me cry like a little girl and think of ...well...me. But not just me, you as well.

I have been slowly letting out some emotions that I have had bottled for quite some time and learning how to deal with them (that's where the being in my head part comes in). Here is what I have discovered.

I am so proud of you. I know I haven't been there emotionally much over the past 9 years nor physically the last year. For that I am truly sorry. I love you so much and I have not been there when you needed me most.

In spite of me, you have grown to a beautiful, compassionate, intelligent, amazing woman with a heart of gold. You have grown so much in the past year and I am absolutely stunned as to how much.

There is only one thing that I am certain would make your life complete I would like to see you do. First would be graduate. I am not harping about this, this is just very important and I want you to have everything you desire. Graduating will eliminate a large amount of obstacles.

You made a good choice with Dan. At first, I was sceptical because of the crowd he ran with and his influence in having you do the same. Dan has also grown considerably in the past year. You saw him as he really was outside the environment and that is a trait extremely valuable in life.

You have a gift Jami. You see the good in people. You are so good with children. You live life one moment or experience at a time. You love to live and live to love. For that, I am envious.

I love you Jami. I only want what is best for you...and since being in my head, I have discovered that what is best for you is what you want.

So, what made me act like I was watching a new episode of Extreme Makeover, Home Improvement or Mr. Holland's Opus?

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you
And the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big


I love you Jami,

Dad

Comments

Nirek said…
wow John! thats lovely letter to your daughter. Hope she was happy seeing it!
9:15 PM
Anonymous said…
Thanks for the letter dad. I didnt get it in my mail since my inbox is packed and i had to google search your blog. i am going to try really hard to graduate by christmas. i love you. jami
4:22 PM
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