Emergency Vacation

I am taking an emergency vacation. I called my boss and informed him I needed a vacation...right now. I really didn't give him a lot of choices. I thought the weekend may be enough to get my head back on straight but it doesn't appear to be the case.

What is my problem? I have lost my passion. It wasn't until I had a long discussion with my psychologist (the Queen) that I realized what my issue is. She is right though.

This is not the first time I have had to deal with this. Usually my self-healing practice is to take some time away from everyone. I will stare at the stars waiting for the signs. I will listen to the words of nature. I will smell the aroma of life. I will feel my guiding wind. For some reason, things are getting harder to digest.

I feel numb. The Queen thinks working on the new website will help. To be honest, I know what is missing. I just have no way of fixing it. This leaves me out of control of my own life...my own destiny. This means, I am living my nightmare. For a long time, I held onto my dreams of moving to Clinton and opening a bookstore. As time (a linear discussion) moves forward, I begin to wonder and doubt that this will ever come to fruition.

I tire from my job. I am weary of the future. I glance back at the past making sure not to dwell on it. I have a mission in my heart without the means to commit to it.

This brings me to my point (as I almost always have one). Take a break. People often take family vacations, vacations with friends, or just stay at home with family and friends.

Maybe, just maybe, if you took a vacation by yourself, you may find more than you expect...well-being.

Did you know...

Americans take an average of just ten days per year vacation. In France, the law guarantees everyone five weeks of vacation, and most full-time workers get two full months vacation.

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Anonymous said…
There's always friday on the train my friend. Your missed.

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